Thursday, December 25, 2008

想通了,想開了

換髮型,
換造型,
換風格,
換性格,
再難以讓人接受的東西我都敢換,
換工就是最令我難以下決定的,
口頭上說了整2-3個月都遲遲不敢開口,
終于上個星期下定決心要跟老闆辭職了,
前一晚練習了數遍后早上起身卻胃痛,
整天都得彎着腰結果等不到機會跟老闆說,
就回家休息了,隔天更是不能上班,
今天又聖誕節,公共假期,
明天是我的deadline了,
因爲後天就是跟edmund,jhunnie,eva原本定好辭職后的東海岸休息旅程。
這次辭職比對上一份工作來得難,
上次辭職只需寫封resignation letter透過e-mail發送給老闆cc給上司,
明天馬上生效,因爲有23天的leaves可以立刻走。
希望這次也可以像上次一樣順利。

想通了,想開了,想走了。
我的任務已經完成了,是時候退役了。

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Thursday, December 04, 2008

Lomo Self-portraits

LCA with Lomo X-Pro Slide 100

LCA with Lomo X-Pro Slide 100

LCA with Kodak E100SW


Wednesday, December 03, 2008

电话



一对情侣与友人在外用餐,女的手提电话响,女的接电话,男的坐在一旁若无其事,女的讲电话有说有笑,男的心不在焉与友人继续聊天,女的讲完电话,男的本来还在与友人聊天,可是马上就轻声地问女的“是谁来的?”,女的说“朋友。”男的“哦……”,然后继续与友人聊天,可是心里充满不甘及疑问。过了一阵或马上就会接着问“哪一个朋友?”,这时女的会有几种反应:
1:(保护私隐型)朋友啦,你不认识的。
2:(坦诚型)城武啰,问我明晚得空吗?
3:(野蛮女友型)问那么多干嘛?
4:(活泼型)怎么啦?吃醋了啊~?哈哈!

反应1234都会引起纠纷,因男而异:

针对反应1,有的男的会:
“嗯~” 然后继续聊天。
“哦……”然后继续聊天,回家检查手提电话。
“朋友没有名字吗?”产生越多的问题

针对反应2,有的男的会:
“哈哈,有人约呢!”
“去哪里?”产生越多的问题

针对反应3,有的男的会:
“关心你嘛……”
“随便问问而已”
“问下不能啦!?”产生越多的问题

针对反应4,有的男的会:
“吃什么醋,神经病!”
“……”傻笑
“不要跟我嬉皮笑脸,谁来的?”产生越多的问题

有时候,女的在男的面前讲电话时会留意男的反应,女的到底要男的在她讲完电话后问(关心)她呢?还是希望男的完全不当刚才那通电话不是一回事?希望得到的是:

  1. 双方都希望有自己的空间,所以双方有时候也不多过问?
  2. 希望对方会顺口问一问,好让自己觉得对方有在乎自己?
  3. 讲完电话后自己会告诉对方电话里头的是谁以及要干嘛?

有时候,对方不让你知道电话里头是谁,而且还离开座位走到餐厅外,可能是:
  1. 他/她正在为你准备一份惊喜。
  2. 他/她在谈正经事,不希望你担心,可能自己已经很烦了,若让你知道后会增添自己的烦恼,不让你知道,并不是怀疑你的协助能力,而是觉得自己可以解决,不希望你担心。
  3. 电话里是他/她的追求者,喜欢看见你吃醋的样子,以及喜欢被追得感觉(因为你已经不再像追她/他那时般浪漫了)他/她只是想找回那感觉,是时候做点浪漫的东西了。
  4. 外遇/第三者,通常第一个被怀疑的一定是这个,因为被电影洗脑了。

当对方在讲电话时最不应该做的事:
  1. 怀疑他/她,如果你不信任他/她,还能在一起长久吗?
  2. 怀疑他/她,你应该信任他/她,因为如果他/她真的有外遇,这个人不值得去爱。
  3. 在他/她讲着电话时在旁刻意大声说话、哈哈大笑、学他/她讲话、帮电话另一头的人配音。
  4. 叫所有人安静下来以便你可以听见他们的谈话。
  5. 摆出一幅黑脸。
  6. 用眼神及手语问他/她电话另一端是谁、干什么……
  7. 若无其事。

对,你什么都不能做,最好上厕所、拿卫生纸、拿牙签、拿辣椒酱…… 回来后,如果他/她要让你知道自然会跟你说。如果他/她没有说,你可以稍微提起,若他/她要让你知道自然会跟你说。

一通电话可能会引起很大的辐射,最好的解决方法:
  1. 接电话是直呼对方的名字如:“嗨!城武!”
  2. 让对方看见显示器出现的名字。
  3. 如果是他/她不认识的异性名字出现,千万不要不接。

记得要提起他/她如:“是啊,在外面跟我男/女朋友吃晚餐。”然后这时把对方的手牵起,世界就会很和平。如果这时你真的是在跟你的外遇讲电话,你一定是一位很有魅力的情圣!我想你的另一半也心甘情愿被朦胧。

Monday, December 01, 2008

坦荡


勉强的笑容隐瞒不了红肿的眼眶,
夜里有眼泪滋润好比在沙漠游荡,
既不把门打开也不希望有风探望,
这并不是等待彩虹而是躲避阳光,
既然阳光下有那你爱的绿色草场,
就不该怕日晒雨淋因爱需要坦荡,
莫怕草场很黑暗因夜有流星飞翔,
那一刹那的光足于温暖你的心房。


Thursday, November 20, 2008

what is lomo to you?






最近被問了幾次"What is lomo to you?"。起初Lomo對我來説是一種另類的照片,有時候Lomo會是一種產品,不過多數時候Lomo對我來説是生活的一部分,嚴格來説Lomo就是用Lomo牌子的相機拍出來的照片,在深入一點就是用Lomo相機拍很Lomo的東西,比如說一個人的屁股,自己的影子,放在桌子上/地上拍對方……等等都是很"例牌"的,是最常見的,可是也不能把這些照片歸類為Lomo,因爲那樣做很傲慢。硬要將一個形容詞與Lomo划上等號,我覺得“酷”會是最貼切。
人家玩數碼,我偏要玩膠卷-酷,
人家站在雙峰塔下把自己及它拍得清清楚楚來留念,我只拍各自的影子-酷,
人家的相機越買越小架,我越買越大塊,越久,越麻煩-酷,
我的相機拿出來很少機會會跟暴發戶的爸爸同一款-酷,
我拍的照片有時候根本看不出是什麽-酷!

最近討論區出現了一位很pannai(馬來西亞稱讚小孩子常用的詞句)的朋友,他毫不吝嗇地跟我們分享他pannai的發現:用各種不同顔色的燈籠紙放在DSLR鏡頭前面,把所拍的數碼照片都偏向一種顔色,可能這位朋友對Lomo的認識還很表面,Lomo對你來説難道就只有偏藍、偏紅、偏綠、偏黃嗎?
"what is lomo to you?"這個問題很吃力,現在Lomo對我來説是友誼,因爲Lomo把一班很奇怪的人不知不覺聚在一起,每天在討論區嘰嘰咋咋,也常一起旅行,到處吃喝玩樂,永遠有說不完的話題,早上見面、晚上見面、網上見"面"、MSN又見"面"……就是講不完。
講真的,其實Lomo就也只是一種產品,一個相機的品牌,一個提供人們拍照的用具,把我們身邊發生的一切記錄下來。爲什麽我們要把自己歸類成另一群,而我們的照片要在特別的討論區分享?因爲我們不想想太多,什麽構圖啦!光線啦!主體啦!概念啦!我們都不想去煩,我們只要爽!如果在photography的討論區裡與photographer分享,我覺得我們的照片會被彈得一文不值,所以我們才會有自己的討論區。請不要誤會,不是我們的境界太高,我們沒有那麽高貴,而是我們很笨,只會用Auto,調我們覺得(大概大概)對的焦點距離,按下快門,拿去沖洗,給錢,拿照片,看照片,跟朋友分享,也不懂得處理照片。如果你們覺得我們很驕傲,閉門造車,不友善,請原諒我們,我想那就是Lomo態度,能"click"在一起就一起,不能的話請不要勉強。
以上那4張所謂的Lomo照片(如果你覺得是),我也很難説他們是Lomo, "what is Lomo to you?"
Lomo = 敗家!
camera : Lomo Compact Automat
film : Kodak e100sw, Fuji Provia 100f, Fuji Velvia 100f

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Shoot from the Hip



Sukhumvit, Bangkok, 18 Febuary 2008



Bugis, Singapore, 8 November 2008

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Into the Wild


年尾了,許多人見面后“咳……”一聲然後接着的話題一定是圍繞着想轉換生活及工作環境。有光從東京回來了,帶着他已實現的夢想光輝回國,記得我們在齊籐畢業后曾經說過會到東京過聖誕,可是我還在這裡……這次他回來應該逗留不久,而且還點燃了我那把已被自己撲滅過無數次的火,可是魚與熊掌不能兼得,我真的要好好跟家人談談才可以,不想自私地做出決定。

jhunnie一直知道我很想流浪,因爲我一直把流浪的瀟灑點挂在口邊,有些東西做不到就得幻想,幻想得不過癮,就吹水。上個星期他介紹我一部叫《Into the Wild》的電影,他說我一定很喜歡,剛剛看完了……(等等,想象一下我眯着眼睛,嘟起嘴巴,輕微地搖頭,嘴巴還會發出“zok...zok...zok...”聲音的樣子。)

超級棒!

戯裡有句話:“Two years he walks the earth. No phone, no pool, no pets, no cigarettes. Ultimate freedom. ” 哇!我看到那裏時,雞皮疙瘩,雙手抓頭,看左看右,沒人分享,就是那麽一直咬牙切齒地“嘶~哇……嘶……”主角抛開所有的一切流浪去,一路上遇到不同的人,每個人都有自己的故事而逃離城市,有吉普賽,有退役兵士,有天體主義者等等,都是超酷的,都是我夢想成爲的人。看着看着,然後告訴自己,這種情景只有電影裡才會遇見。誰知道!誰知道!誰知道……


……原來這是部真人真事電影,真的有那麽一輛巴士,真的有那麽的一個人:Christopher Johnson McCandless !以上這張是他為自己拍下的一張照片。電影裡的每一個鏡頭都是實地拍攝,是由金像獎影帝辛潘(Sean Penn)持導的,辛潘也是一位我十分喜歡欣賞的電影人,他爲了拍這部《Into the Wild》,苦苦地等Christopher McCandless家人的同意等了十年!這種精神真的是……真的是……難怪Madonna不要你!(不知道怎樣形容)很多在從事音樂,藝術,設計的朋友往往都很懷疑一直這樣堅持下去不知道對不對,我覺得不必太過苛求什麽飛黃騰達,一夜成名,只要開心就好,堅持到底就是勝利。

很喜歡以下這一句話,也是從電影《Into the Wild》聽見的:

"If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed."

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

她說

她說:“唔係你o既,就唔係你o既……”




Monday, November 10, 2008

等着走,等着看

Giă Giá Kuà Kuă at Penang...
waiting for feedback...
time goes by slowly...
but we can't just sit and wait here...
let's pray Guan Yin Ma to let jhunnie wins the lottery and sponsors the whole trip!


camera : LCA
film : Fuji Provia 100f, Lomo X-pro slide 100, Fuji Velvia 100f

Friday, November 07, 2008

Duck on Water

從小就很喜歡看我家的老大在錄音室工作,小時候有機會上來吉隆坡而且可以去錄音室是一件很開心的事,可是老大的女人不喜歡進錄音室,原因是怕冷。所以結果還是很少機會去看老大工作。

上個星期Singblass發送了這2張Lomo圖給我,哇!帥呆了!大多數的時間我爸都在錄音室、工作室、音樂室,回家后就是三更半夜了,如果有機會一起吃飯,他也不會談工作上的東西。有時候跟singblass喝茶,他都會提到一些有關我家老大的東西,比如說在錄音室睡着、一起出國公幹遇到的趣事、說過的一些笑話等等,我都很感興趣。

曾經有一次我在老大的錄音室閑溜,看他錄合音,哇,原來不容易,2首歌4把合音竟然錄了一整天,午餐,晚餐,夜宵都在錄音室裏面食用。可是錄完了之後大家都很開心,感覺很爽!因爲自己也很愛音樂,中學時代又有學人家組樂隊,所以深深體會到在錄音室的那種氣氛和錄完后的那種爽快!時常有朋友問爲什麽不幫爸爸找吃,我都會回答得很負面很抗拒,其實是很想的,可是我根本不懂音樂,怎麽幫啊?只怪自己小時候玩叛逆,不學鋼琴、不學吉他、不學樂理...

現在只能看老爸工作的結果,卻看不到最爽的製作過程...


pic by singblass with LCApic by singblass with LCA
Lomographed by singblass with LCA Refurbished
while recording for Magic Mirror The Musical (寳鏡)

Thursday, November 06, 2008

see(want it to be)



可能只是擦肩而過卻留下美好回憶,
在轉角等待被發現的卻沒有被留意,
那三棵椰樹在藍天下看着白雲漂移,
盼望有人某天擡頭瞭望其實不容易,
常路過樹底的你難道從來沒有懷疑?
其實他那張被你讚美的照片就這裡。


some sweet memory remains maybe because of just a smile,
thing that always be at the corner but unseen like away from thousand miles,
coconut trees underneath sky are watching cloud that moving like mouse,
is hard to expect someone would stare at them and awed,
even you who often passing by was asking how?
how did he capture this scene where actually in front of your house.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Dig My Eyes Out


if i roam with darkness and tears,
please don't try to pull me down,
let the pain all done and gone,
I'll not take that suffer again,
door always closed as nothing happened,

raven slowly biting away all the pain on me,
flying with black suit like the tuxedo i wore on our wedding,
burning into dust and blow it away,
leave no ashes behind,
leaving this painful venue by burying under earth,

your eyes are killing me silently,
your smile is making an angel envy,
please don't leave the 9 inch nails behind,
my undertaker needs it to keep me away from you,
awful screaming came to me through that window,

all the blind man matching to cloud,
slowly the heavy black cloud falling down,
burning torches holding by men is no longer bright,
it is now the time of cold,
I'll see you again, not once more but much,

I'm still checking things I've left,
how can i forget the rose you gave me,
the black rose that hanging in my wardrobe,
when all the poison in the world disappear,
i don't wish to have cure to resist your smile.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Reality Bites


27th October 2008, Deepavali, 11:16am:

thought of sleeping until late afternoon like 2/3pm, but woke up this early,
woke up by a very real dream... a dream that doesn't smell like a dream,
it was more like a hint and direction by someone,
it was more like someone was telling me what to do,
it was more like looking at the future that i don't want to face.

The future that i've already seen, but don't wish to let it come.

Even dream was so truth, why am i still sleeping?
I should wake up since early, shouldn't let the truth(dream) happens.

連夢都那麽真實,不敢睡覺了...

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Rat in a Cage (free for visiting)

"Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage"
- Bullet With Butterfly Wings, The Smashing Pumpkins




This place was usually where I can say my heart out, telling my thought cause I can't tell it through my fucking mouth, and this is the shit hole where I can throw my words in when I tried to talk with my friends and they seem to making jokes on me!(yeah, fuck you, I'm talking about you, go enjoy your movie!) This place was once helped me to get through on countless sleepless nights, this place was where I found lots of fun and lots of memories by reading it back.



But now I can't say a fucking word here! what the fuck is wrong with this place? this is so ironic, is like I like to shower in the middle of the road but I don't want some of the public to stare on your dick. Why the fuck do I have to care so much, I could just fucking shout it out loud, but i choose to be a silent son of a bitch. Sometimes I still can use those "isi tersirat"(hints) although some of them were only could be decoded by myself, but I still satisfied at least I've say it out. but now...

Fuck you Jeep, go to sleep!!!

Saturday, October 04, 2008

希望:星期天

上個星期拍了個關於一名念音樂系得女孩在家裡懶洋洋地度過了一個星期天,
她有很多功課,可是就是下不了筆...

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還以爲,是必然的,
不知道,是假裝的,
就在這一個星期天,
讓我們把一切都忘掉,
空氣裡就只有音樂及草香。

星期天,充滿希望,
睡醒了,還等待夢,
就把這星期天變夢,
我願意永遠地被朦朧,
音樂裡有你會痛的呼吸聲。

好想好想,好想就這樣懶洋洋地躺在這,
就算嘀嗒嘀嗒聲一直毫不留情地響,
也不會把我催促,
也不覺得被浪費。

喜歡喜歡,好喜歡現在的這樣的輕鬆感,
至少放下了以後還會有拿起的機會,
地球本來是圓的,
不要逼成三角形。

這個充滿希望的星期天,
就讓他成爲記憶吧,
明天又是一個戴面具的星期一。



model : Althena Lihwa
camera : Lomo Compact Automat, Diana F+
filme : Lomo X-Pro Slide 100, Tokyo Gratzy Parade 100, Kodak Pro 160-2

Sunday, September 28, 2008

爬山記

Entrance
so exciting view
the beginning
still beginning...
R&R
continued...
R&R again...

15 minutes away from the camp side, let's DIVE!!!


camera : Lomo Compact Automat
film : Konica SRM 200


Friday, September 26, 2008

你,只需转身。

他,会等在转角处。

Monday, September 22, 2008

懶散是浪漫

記得夏永康(Wing Shya)說過“懶散是很浪漫的”我絕對贊成,很喜歡看一些“懶散”的照片,比如披頭散髮地躺在床上吸煙,眼睜睜地傻傻看着窗...等等。這些照片的感覺都是很懶散很浪漫。

但是如果要相比,我覺得神經病更浪漫,之前看過Rain主演的《飞越疯人院》就覺得精神病患的愛情故事很浪漫,很瀟灑,很大膽,很真...上個月看過由樂隊U2的主音Bono寫的一部叫The Million Dollar Hotel的舊電影,更對精神病患者的愛情故事羡慕及妒嫉。

如果說“懶散是浪漫”那麽懶散加上神經病就是浪漫的頂點,也就是普通人很難享受到的浪漫,除非你愛上一個懶散的瘋人!比如:村上春樹的《挪威的森林》裡頭的直子,Fight Club裏頭的Tyler Durden或是《墮落天使》裏頭的金城武或莫文蔚...他們都是一級的懶散瘋人!

與夏永康合照。



Thursday, September 18, 2008

if she could speak...




camera : Lomo Compact Automat
film : Kodak Elitechrome Extra Color 100

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

旋轉中的平靜

sent my film to Edmund on Monday night, he got it on yesterday, i gave him 2 rolls of 120 and a roll of 135 kodak EBX, the 2 rolls of 120 were taken in Roost JuiceBar but there were nothing, nothing as in can't see anything, another 2 rolls of failure. For the another roll of Kodak EBX 135, i totally forgot what's inside. Today, edmund sent me this picture through MSN...wow...i like this picture very much, it was taken in Genting First World Indoor Theme Park. Finally the feel of Lomography came back to me, i think i've lost it since long time ago. Thanks to beebee & Jeremy for bringing us there, thanks to Jhunnie & Eva for being there at the night, without you both without this shot, and thanks to Edmund helps me to send this roll to FotoMega, Tmn Desa Setapak. This is the fun of using analogue camera, if you forget what you've snap inside a roll of film, you'll be surprised when you got the film developed, "The Future is Analogue"!!!


and thanks to the stranger that standing still there :)






camera : Lomo Compact Automat
film : Kodak Elitechrome Extra Color 100

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

i'm a loser...


congratulations to the winner:
http://www.threadless.com/product/1428/Striped_Bird



can't wait

Today got home early, after dinner with mum, she conquered the TV, i can't watch movie, tot of going for a swim, but too fulled, tot of updating my blog, since I've reserved so long for my Johor trip picture, but still i don't have those pictures, so i can't update, once again, reserved...

i even use my pictures taken with handphone on my blog, really can't wait, although i didn't shot a lot, but this trip was so much fun, now the excitement is with me, so tot of getting those pic before it's cold.

Ah!!! can't wait anymore: even draw with pencil tool in illustrator only take 3-4 minutes to complete all this "scamps" below, haih, play what LOMO ah, go for Nikon D90 lah!!!
*slap*slap*slap* sorry jeep, jeep+ naughty, okok, be cool, he knows he's wrong now, he admits fault...*slap*(again)
1st lomo.location: pineapple plantation: LOL, weechonghooi jumped for many times, because his jumping is damn cool, everyone wants to capture.
2nd Lomo.Location: Tanjung Piai, Eva's snapping the direction board
3rd Lomo.Location: Kukup, sunset of Kukup, silhouette of Rest house
4th Lomo.Location: Roost Juice Bar, my dream restaurant.
4th Lomo.Location: Kota Tinggi Waterfalls, jeremy and beebee can't wait to swim because of the freaking hot weather, hahaha! nice swimming trunk, jeremy!
5th Lomo.Location: opposite of Singapore(sorry, forgot what's that place) we ate seafood there, before we went back to KL.


camera: LCA
film : Lomo Xpro Slide


Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Advice


What kind of hair style should go for?(if with reference picture would be better)

請建議我該剪怎麽樣的髮型?(有照片參考當然最好)

picture no.1-3 by edmund with canon g9

P/S: my sister went to Shanghai's Nike 10km Human Race, kindly visit to her blog and see what is actually "crowded" mean.