Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Dig My Eyes Out

if i roam with darkness and tears,
please don't try to pull me down,
let the pain all done and gone,
I'll not take that suffer again,
door always closed as nothing happened,

raven slowly biting away all the pain on me,
flying with black suit like the tuxedo i wore on our wedding,
burning into dust and blow it away,
leave no ashes behind,
leaving this painful venue by burying under earth,

your eyes are killing me silently,
your smile is making an angel envy,
please don't leave the 9 inch nails behind,
my undertaker needs it to keep me away from you,
awful screaming came to me through that window,

all the blind man matching to cloud,
slowly the heavy black cloud falling down,
burning torches holding by men is no longer bright,
it is now the time of cold,
I'll see you again, not once more but much,

I'm still checking things I've left,
how can i forget the rose you gave me,
the black rose that hanging in my wardrobe,
when all the poison in the world disappear,
i don't wish to have cure to resist your smile.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Reality Bites

27th October 2008, Deepavali, 11:16am:

thought of sleeping until late afternoon like 2/3pm, but woke up this early,
woke up by a very real dream... a dream that doesn't smell like a dream,
it was more like a hint and direction by someone,
it was more like someone was telling me what to do,
it was more like looking at the future that i don't want to face.

The future that i've already seen, but don't wish to let it come.

Even dream was so truth, why am i still sleeping?
I should wake up since early, shouldn't let the truth(dream) happens.


Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Rat in a Cage (free for visiting)

"Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage"
- Bullet With Butterfly Wings, The Smashing Pumpkins

This place was usually where I can say my heart out, telling my thought cause I can't tell it through my fucking mouth, and this is the shit hole where I can throw my words in when I tried to talk with my friends and they seem to making jokes on me!(yeah, fuck you, I'm talking about you, go enjoy your movie!) This place was once helped me to get through on countless sleepless nights, this place was where I found lots of fun and lots of memories by reading it back.

But now I can't say a fucking word here! what the fuck is wrong with this place? this is so ironic, is like I like to shower in the middle of the road but I don't want some of the public to stare on your dick. Why the fuck do I have to care so much, I could just fucking shout it out loud, but i choose to be a silent son of a bitch. Sometimes I still can use those "isi tersirat"(hints) although some of them were only could be decoded by myself, but I still satisfied at least I've say it out. but now...

Fuck you Jeep, go to sleep!!!

Saturday, October 04, 2008



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model : Althena Lihwa
camera : Lomo Compact Automat, Diana F+
filme : Lomo X-Pro Slide 100, Tokyo Gratzy Parade 100, Kodak Pro 160-2